I'm being patient...

What is patience anyway?
Delayed what? Delayed gratification? Delayed blessings? OR just a delay... Time for me to understand why I am going through what I am going through? Patience is GOD's way of preparing us for what is about to come... I can accept that! With all the crazy things going on and through my mind... Sometimes I feel like I dont want to talk to anyone, because no matter who it is, I get the same questions, and with those questions, I have to provide answers, and I have NONE! How long can I go without talking to my friends? I miss them....On top of the fact that all of my closest girlfriends and family are on the mainland... and I am still on this little island... I lack the face to face comfort of the familiar. I have new friends that live close to me, but I don't know anyone even close to being in a similar situation as me, so again, lacking comfort... Where can I get the comfort I am looking for? My husband wants to comfort me, but I don't look to him, because I now feel myself quickly feeling resentful toward him for not giving me what I want.

There are soo many "what if's" I could go on and on with the "what if's" and that is not going to help me, it will discourage me. I want to keep things positive and keep things moving in my life, and continue to trust that when it is time for us, GOD will provide in all things!
In the meantime, i am going to distract myself with contemplating a new job... I already have business going on in my life... A new job will get me around people again vs. working from home and will provide some nice distraction until "that" time comes....

My hopes are that this BLOG helps give me an outlet to vent my frustrations and makes me feel better, so far... well, I'm being patient. I will continue to write hoping that some keen inspiration will find me well, and until then, I am gonna go for a walk!